It has been 3 weeks since I hugged you. Gosh, I miss it. I didn’t want to let go when we hugged. I didn’t want the day to end. I just want time to show down whenever I’m with you.

I crave for your hugs even if it’s just as friends.

I just want to love you. Even it’s from afar and away from you.

I just want to care for and love you. Just let me do that even if it’s one sided.

Thoughts

Was thinking back on all our moments together, which is a lot. Despite all our bad times and the horrible things I did, we really did genuinely love each other. Am I right? Cause I will never forget just looking at your face, our eyes interlocked, I know you felt it too. We were deeply in love with another. I really really love you. And I know deep down, I still intensely feel it. I’m not gonna go away. I know what I felt, it’s a one of a kind love.

I love you too much to let you go.

I want to keep fighting for you cause that’s how much you mean to me. Yes I hurt you and you are mad and I deserve the consequences of losing you. But I freaking love you so much. I know I’m capable of changing. And I want to prove it and show it to you. I want you to let me care for you at least. I just want to love you.

I wish you would want the same but I doubt it.

Just know that I will never stop loving and fighting for you.

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Everything just makes me cry

How do I do this, continue living? Without me living, everyone’s lives will be better. Especially yours. I caused you to be like this, feel like this. I should be the one dying, dead, gone.

There is no more purpose. I’ve got no more will to do anything or continue being here. I caused all of this to happen and I can’t bear with the outcomes of it. I should just get out of everyone’s lives. Yes I should.